A new year calls for new beginnings. But first, some reflection time. Break this year has been AMAZING. This is due partially to my not being anti-social and lazy so I actually had a lot of fun [: Yesterday Jon, Cindy, and I went to go visit Gina, who's at home with Vertigo. Bad things always seem to happen to her when she deserves a break ): So she's stuck at home feeling dizzy and watching ridiculous amounts of TV because she can't drive and her friends and family left her to go party. I'm glad I went because it seemed to brighten her day.

I'm starting to do this introspection thing at night, which is surprisingly fun. I've realized that the nighttime is the best time to think and I always seem to come up with strange questions at night. I've also realized that the internet doesn't have the answer to everything. Shocking...so instead, I have to come up with answers to these questions. Last night, I thought a lot about friends. Not particular friends. Just my general group. And I realized that I want more friends like Gina, who is very chill about life in general and isn't afraid to do ridiculous things. (She drove to Sheetz and sat in her car blasting an airhorn because she was bored and Sheetz always has annoying customers) I want to reflect on high school and have memories like that. I've realized that I'm restricted mostly because my parents are restrictive and I don't want to disappoint them so I tag along with them whenever they go to Asian parties and the like because it makes them happy that I'm there. I go even though I know that it will be boring. I've also realized that Cindy is my motivation to do any ounce of work. Seeing her do homework makes me panic for the fear of lagging behind so I do work too. However, this will be a major problem in college where I will have the choice of either doing work or doing something fun. This year, I've learned to appreciate human interaction more than academic pursuits. And I'm really glad I did. Hopefully at college I'll find friends who will constantly challenge me socially and academically.

Over the past decade, I've experienced stark opposite lives. I've lived in an apartment in the South with little financially and have experienced miracles and inspirational actions. I've lived in a nice house in the North with more than enough financially and have had the opportunity to give back to the community what it has bestowed upon me and my family. And more importantly, I've met life-changing, inspirational individuals who never fail to be there for me despite my flaws. It is these individuals who make life worth living, and I declare the next decade as my quest to find these people. Call me selfish, but I want to meet them so that I can be just like them.

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