Today is the first day this week I haven't been busy so I'm going to take the time to post on this blog. I realized this week that there is a desperate need for self improvement, which I have been ignoring thus far, but I am addressing it now. Honesty has always been a problem for me. By that, I don't mean I'm a liar who spread false rumors or steal or cheat or any of that business. I mean that I have not always been true to myself. Sometimes, I live in denial or unable to face the truth. I glaze over my many faults thinking that it isn't a big deal because no one's perfect. For example, I have a problem of judging a person through outward appearances, but have always ignored this simply because I thought that this was done by everyone. Even if that may be true, it isn't an excuse, and I shouldn't use it as such. This week has been a constant evaluation of my every thought/action/word to see if I'm speaking the absolute truth or if I'm lying because it is the "simplest" thing to do in the situation. Granted simplest isn't always best. I may be blunt at times but please understand that it isn't me trying to make you feel like crap for the sake of doing so. I am also posting about this so that you can hold me accountable. If you catch me lying (even if it is telling white lies), please tell me. You're not hurting my feelings. Well, maybe a little but ultimately, the criticisms will help me improve. This week isn't over yet but looking back, I'm proud of the little that I have been able to change. At times, it is extremely frustrating to not improve as greatly as I had hoped. But now, I realize that improving takes more than simply a week and is a constant, neverending process.

In other news, my camera came today! It's orange and beee-utiful!! :D Like a true blogger, I will now carry my camera around and take pictures.

College apps are also quickly consuming my life. I have decided not to apply to Brown anymore. The reason is: I saw the essay prompt and it was about why I wanted to attend. Then, I realized that I don't want to go there. Why did I consider it? Because it's a good school. Because I want to be able to say I got in. (If I get in that is) But then I realized how dumb those reasons were. I don't want to be there. I want to be at a school where I will be happy. I think we often forget this factor because other people's opinions make our decisions for us. Why do we apply to schools like Harvard, Princeton, Yale, Stanford? Do we really want to go? Or do we want to go just so we can tell people we have the ability to get in? I do admit I'm guilty of this. I'm applying to several schools I know nothing about, but because they have nice names, I'm applying. I need to start practicing what I preach (as cliche as that saying is) and so I'm going to start withdrawing some of my applications. Many of you are probably thinking "but isn't that why you applied to Wharton, the best business school in the world?" Actually, that isn't the reason I'm applying. Why do I want to go to Wharton? Not for the title but for the classes. At Wharton, you can take classes where the main purpose is to construct service projects to serve the Philadelphia area. Example: Management 100. How amazing is that? THAT is the reason I want to go. Well anyways, it's time to get some work done. Decisions come out tomorrow so I will keep everyone posted [:

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CONGRATULATIONS CONGRATULATIONS CONGRATULATIONS.
Ohmygosh I'm so happy for you!! :) :)

By  Liyan F., at December 11, 2009 at 5:46 PM  

Thanks dear! [: YAAAAAAAAAY I'm done with school :p

By  Connie, at December 12, 2009 at 8:40 AM  

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